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THE GRIEF OF MOTHERLESS SUNDAY
— by Katrina Taee Katrina Taee
Mothers Day, Mothering Sunday, mother is gone, mother is dead, grief, loss, berevement, sadness, lonely, alone, feel like an orphan, I am an orphan,

It’s March, and that time of year when sons and daughters of all ages get to thank their Mothers for everything they do and have done, and tell them that they love them. The signs are afoot, the cards in the shops, the flowers for sale, special displays of gifts and chocolates abound. It’s much anticipated by those whose Mothers are alive, but for those of you whose Mother has died, it can be a different story altogether.

If you are feeling bereft, alone, abandoned, sad, tearful, upset, acutely lonely and orphaned, you are not alone. There is no other day which can propel you back into grief quite as efficiently as Mother’s Day.

Our Mothers are the epicentres of our lives around which we revolve. Rather like the sun and the circulating planets. She shines brightly for us and we always know she is there. This is so crucial in our evolution towards adulthood. She creates loving bonds which allow us to eventually move away from her, explore the world and enter a life of our own. As we move towards adulthood and embrace jobs, travel, relationships and families of our own, we hopefully do it with our Mothers presence in our lives. That steady love she offers us remains as a strong base to which we return to  time and time again. It underpins us.

Even if we have had a difficult relationship with our Mother, she may still hold a central place in our life because we think about her so much. We wish we could have had a more loving relationship, we angst about how things could be different, we cling to the vestiges of the relationship and we keep trying to keep it going, or we spend time making sure we don’t, but she may still occupy our minds and create a lot of emotions in us.

Nothing is quite as efficient at highlighting our deep loss as Mothering Sunday. Sometimes the grief creeps us unseen and unbidden for some weeks before the day. We may not have clocked our feelings of unease, unhappiness and renewed grief, but they are unconsciously, or consciously manifesting themselves during February. When the day finally comes there may have been a build-up of profound sadness and the flood gates open.

The pain of not having a loving Mother with you anymore is as deep as it is wide. We look around and see everyone else celebrating, and it exacerbates our loss. Many adult children feel orphaned but it is not something that they are able to say aloud, because orphans are children surely? This is the point though, it isn’t only the adult part of us that misses Mum, it is the child part of us which craves and longs for those loving arms around us again, kissing us, making it all better and sending us back out to face the world. We yearn to have our rock back, the centre of our universe and the one who loved us unconditionally, however awful, naughty or outrageous we were.

There are triggers that can transport us back to our Mums, for example a waft of her perfume, old sayings she used, the smell of a chocolate cake in the oven, memories of times spent together or photographs. These are poignant moments which re-connect us with her. There is a belief about grief which says you cannot go over it, you cannot go under it or around it, you have to go through it. So bearing this in mind, how can you navigate your way through Mothers Day?

What can connect you to your Mother on this Mothering Sunday?

Set time aside for memories, allow them to come freely, don’t keep them at bay.

Buy yourself her perfume, smell has such a strong way of evoking someone.

Look at old photographs, or put one in a frame and give it pride of place on Sunday.

Listen to music she might have liked and that you remember from your childhood.

Wear something she gave you, or a piece of jewellery which was left to you after she died.

Tell your family or friends something about her and bring her into the conversation.

Share your feelings with the ones around you.

Write your Mum a letter and tell her what you want her to know, then burn it outside and send those words into the universe for her to hear.

Write her a Mother’s Day Card if you prefer to do that, it is not mad I promise you!

Remember, it is just a day, the same as the one before it and the one after it, it will pass.

Acknowledge your love, your grief and the child part of you which longs for her.

And if your relationship with your Mother has been difficult or absent, then acknowledge that and share that with someone who loves you.  Not everyone loved their Mother and that is OK too.

If you want to share thoughts and feelings about Mothering Sunday to help others, then please join the conversation below.  It can help others to know they are not alone in their grief.