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Not everyone loves parties, but for those of you who grieve, you know they can present as something to be dreaded, as they loom on the horizon. Those who don’t grieve and who adore parties are probably wondering , what I am talking about? When life goes along well, to all intents and purposes quite normally, then a party presents as a way to enjoy yourself, a chance to get dressed up,  let your hair down, to reconnect with old friends, meet new people, maybe flirt a bit, gossip and it might involve a fair bit of alcohol unless you are teetotal.  All of that list potentially present a problem for the bereaved.

Let me walk you through that scenario through the eyes of someone who has been bereaved.  The invitation poses a problem first off because it has probably been sent with the idea that it would be good for you to get out of the house and re-engage with life a bit (read, have some fun).  I have yet to meet a bereaved person who actually wanted to go to a party anytime soon after their loss.  It is usually met with a mixture of horror and fear.  Something as simple as having to get dressed up might take on new meaning.  For example, women might think, if I get dressed up and look attractive, men might approach me and then what?  Men and women might be reflecting on the fact that for the last 20 years they have never been to a party on their own and they cannot face it alone, it is too daunting.
The invitation itself puts pressure on the bereaved because they know that the onus in on them as a guest, to have fun, that is what you are supposed to do at a party right?  But they don’t want to have fun, they don’t feel in a fun mood.  It is tricky because if they have fun, what does that mean? Have they forgotten their loved one, are they being disloyal by having fun?  Will people think they aren’t grieving appropriately (yes, you would be surprised on that particular one)?  Will other party guests think they are ‘over’ their loss?

Party conversation is a ticking time-bomb. Hopefully good friends would be sensitive and would know that certain, questions would be inappropriate in this setting, but that is the trouble with parties, there are usually people we don’t know present. If you are bereaved and you have pulled up every ounce of energy to ‘face the world’ that night, it is frightening when you know how close you are to breakdown given the right trigger. Simple questions that we routinely ask at parties, as part of social small talk become potential igniters of a wave of grief.  "Where is your wife", "what does your husband do", or a particularly difficult one for bereaved parents is, "how many children do you have"? The answers to these and other questions can literally stick in their throat and a horrible sense of panic can perfuse their body.  Once that sets in it can either go two ways:  one is to tell the truth about what has happened or fudge the question.  It’s really tough because if the truth is told, there is that awkward moment when you see the fellow party guests' face flounder, and a platitude is rolled out amidst embarrassment on both sides. Sometimes they might be lucky enough to meet someone who is really empathetic to the situation, but even so, parties don’t lend themselves to those sorts of conversations oftentimes.  Having said that, when they do, it can be utterly redeeming and heart-warming!  On the other hand, if the question is fudged, then there is a denial of sorts and that can sit very uncomfortably in the heart of the bereaved.  In short, small talk is almost impossible when you are grieving because something so enormous has happened, which leaves everything else feeling so insignificant.

Don’t get me wrong, I am all for a drink, especially at a party but alcohol poses more of a risk if you are bereaved.  I said earlier that a lot of energy is required to ‘put on a face’ at a party.  Alcohol can take that mask off very quickly.  It is easy to want to drink to drown ones’ sorrows, to forget what has happened and want to numb your emotions or to relax oneself, and I think we all know it is easy to drink too much, especially at a party where the drink is served.  Try and imagine the bereaved’s emotions being held tightly in a box, alcohol lubricates the lid and it lifts off.  All those emotions can come out in a huge rush and they find themselves breaking down in the middle of the party.  Of course, this is natural and normal, but most grieving people want to grieve in the privacy of their home, to maintain some dignity rather than expose themselves to public scrutiny (in fact most people nursing any sort of sadness would feel the same).  Alcohol is not the route to private grief in a public setting.  It is up to each person to decide what they should do about drinking at parties but it is a thin line when you nurse a deep loss, and one that a lot of mourners don’t want to cross.
What about flirting?  It might be that the one who died has been ill for a very long time, years maybe.  Being a carer of a chronically ill loved one is a tiring and difficult job.  I have met carers who  have rarely left their sick partners' side for years.  Their self-confidence is low, their sexuality is on the back burner (buried somewhere pretty deep) and they have probably forgotten how to have fun.  Add some of the aforementioned alcohol, and an empathetic ear, a pretty party dress and the scene could be set for some innocent (and completely fabulous) flirting.  In the cold light of the next morning, that can either feel like something promising and exciting or a complete betrayal of their partner. You can imagine that one of those outcomes leads to a lot of recriminations and soul-searching, the other shines with brighter promise.

So what can help? Here are some suggestions to consider?

It is OK to say no to an invitation, it is not a three-line whip, it is just an invite!

Plan how you are going to get to and from the party (don’t rely on lifts and favours), almost all bereaved  people like an escape plan, it makes staying easier if you know you can leave at any time.

Think about taking a friend or supporter with you so you have an anchor there.

It is absolutely fine to protect yourself by keeping facts and emotions private.

Think about whether you are up to party or you need to hold back on the drinks to stay in charge of yourself, and act accordingly.

Give yourself permissions to have fun, this is really important because you may not have had much fun lately, and I am pretty sure your beloved would want you to.

Don’t worry if you laugh, it isn’t a betrayal, it does not mean you are not grieving, it just means you are in the moment.

Same goes for flirting, it does not mean you do not continue to love your partner of course you do – forever, but maybe there is a possibility there is still some spark there.  I hope so!

Have you found anything which helps at parties.  Please join the conversation below.  It might help someone else.

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